A New Cover - A New Story

2010-07-30T00:16:00.001-07:00

Well I feel so stress currently with all the things going on at work and my own personal life. Things just don't go the way you expected yet you feel like shit. Everyones mouth can be a bitch but I have yet to be bitchy yet, sooner or later once I build up all the stress till it reaches it peak that's when I am going to explode all out. I kind of like the stress level but don't ever judge how the way people work or how they can make work happen. If you are panicking, dig a grave for yourself but don't bring others along with you. A coffin only can fit for 1.

Flashy Flash

2010-06-25T06:27:00.001-07:00

Lets recall back some time alright?

All my 9 months being with him has all gone down the drain, when i found out he was cheating with another guy, not just another one guy but two guys as well.

And it took me time and effort to suck it all in and believe the fact that it has happened.

I tried my very best.... and everyone was supportive and yes disappointed as well on what he did.

I gave my all into in and it was fucked when i found out....

Now he is happen with some other guy, but he does not know about him, well too bad that guy's closest friend is mine and he knows, i just told him not to tell him yet, let him find out by himself as how i did.

Now for the Present picture.

I met the sweetest and adorable guy name Shah.

He has everything that i look for and definately there are thing which i really adore him..

His smile esp makes me melt and definately the most charming person i've known...

the manliness of him just turns me on and sex is not on our minds,

His explanation were taughtful and he is always helpful in everything he does,

definately affectionate.

He may have his dilemma but i'm there for him....

Even if i help him to i have nothing, i still am happy to give him my all,

He brought back the life and the endearment back in me,

I bought him a Gift and i know its his fav.

and i wanna get a bigger one soon for him! That if i have enough money thou..

I wanna do so much things yet so little time and not enough money!

Need to get a part time job as well

Long Long Long

2010-05-16T21:55:00.000-07:00

Vimal is back again! This time with pics! ahahah
enjoy!
from pinkdot 2010!

blog time again

2010-04-10T08:51:00.000-07:00

I been thinking, all the things you said to me,
all the problems you tell me.
is it all lies?

lies just not to meet me so tat u can meet him?
saying u are alone outside, but actually with him?
i dont know?
should i think tat way?
you make me wonder sometimes whether have i been a fool?
have i been cheated by you all this while.
the sad thing was u actually introduce him to me as your cousin.
but ppl have been coming up to me and telling me tat his ur bf and dont tell me.
are u hinting me something?
i cant play this game anymore......

I taught you were the one.
for months we lasted and that was the longest and faithful relationship.
ppl might say only months only.. only 8 months together?
we'll this is my longest relationship with someone.

you tell me tat you dont want your mum to know tat i am ur bf, so u put ur cousin's photos..
but ppl comment and u said tats ur boi. isnt it ironic already?
i dont understand your motive, dont understand anything! i am lost totally,
sometimes i can sense a lie, but i just keep quiet just waiting for you to just confess!

but i cant wait longer, and let u keep getting away with lies on me!
how can i be such a fool!
i should have seen this coming!
but i was blinded by your love,care and comfort!

what is going on aliff!
tell me please!
tell me the whole truth and nothing but the truth!

Its better if you just tell me, rather than i figuring it out myself, which i have did with black and white evidence.
just tell me k?

BASEMENT 1

2010-03-21T06:58:00.000-07:00

BASEMENT 1

2010-03-10T06:13:00.000-08:00

Both Of these 2 are my bestest boyfriends!! i like to see when they go drag!!

they love to play with their play makeup!

OMG brothers..u all are supper funny!!

Once In a Life time u get to see them..

so enjoy the moment!

This Is Ahamad Ridzuan

This Is Rafie Johari

Knock Out

2010-03-10T06:04:00.001-08:00

I Wanna Say This!

I Will Wait!

Difficult

But

I Will Wait!

Sorry my friends, I know its stupid..But i got to give it a risk..

I have to wait and i will wait..
its very sudden!

short

2010-03-06T08:26:00.000-08:00

finally i get to meet him yesterday!
i was happy and yet wanted to cry

Long time!
and lots of paraniod ideas!

but i still love him!

his outlook changed!
something about him is changed..
mmmmm

I love u!

No more Energy left

2010-03-04T05:54:00.000-08:00

I tried very hard..
very very hard to give time to u,
to want to meet u but everything a plan is up
you just dissappear,
you said your phone is on 24/7 but whenever i call, its off
you said your phone got problem, i msg you, u never reply

i feel very paranoid, very sad, very angry, very fucked up
if its once you did tat,i'm fine with that
but not once, not twice, its countless.
Whats going on?
If You got last min plans, tell me, dont make me call you hundred times and find out tat you having plans
which you have to meet me actually,
I dont mind you gg off for family issues or whatever!
But tell me, i msg/call u never reply!

Today!
Suppose to meet me at 7pm,
but in the end i find out i cant get thru u again!
Imagine i wait for u down there till 9pm!
till now cant get thru!
What the fuck u are doing!
Go and throw ur phone away! burn it!

Make Me feel like Getting u a new phone!

Just Say It, Straight to my face!!
I dont know wat to believe, What to listen and where to share all this with...

I love you sia!
Fuck u sia!I fucking Love You!
why make me in this state!?

haiz..

so baby,dont worry
you are my only
you wont be lonely
even if the sky is falling down
you'll be my only
no need to worry

baby,are down,down,down,down,down?
down,down
baby,are down,down,down,down,down?

down,down
even if the sky is falling down?

you keep telling me this!
and it keeps running around my head!

Dry Tank

2010-03-03T06:50:00.000-08:00

I cried sooo much for the pass 3 days!
looking at my mother suffer and my family and everyone for the lost of my uncle ( mum's Brother)
I cannot take it..
haiz...

I kinda Still Shocked as they cremetated the body today..
its fucking too early for him to go!
his only 48 this year!
Just 48!
and we just met him last week and he was all happy and joking!
now his gone forever!
i pity his family and his sons...

My baby also...
admitted in hospital..
twice in the week..
everything is going wrong!
i dont wanna loose anyone else...
please baby!
dont leave me! please dont do anything stupid to yourself if u have anything!
I love u soo much!!

and i miss my uncle sooo much!
i hope my mother recovers and so as my auntie..
my mother fainted at mandai... haiz...

I'm Not Sad, I'm Not Yet Angry

2010-03-02T00:25:00.001-08:00

One Word!

I'll Wait,
Its Time I should play the game!

Time

2010-02-28T06:22:00.001-08:00

Its been Very Long Since we last saw each other
Problems on ur side, work
Work on my side

Haiz..
Today is our 7th month together..
and we only spent 1 hr plus together..

but i still am happy..i get to see u today..
Happy tat u are still save and sound..
Still the same love!

I love u sooo much!

:(

2010-02-25T05:43:00.000-08:00

This time i really2 not sure..
i actually dont know wat to type or say or anything!
i just confuse and feel like, i dont know wat to say really..

Yawn

2010-02-24T04:56:00.000-08:00

This Week My Sleep has been needed!
but i did not manage to get the sleep tat i really wanted..
now is only 9pm and i fill like shutting down!
hahaha

baby has a surprise for me.. i dont know wat is it seh!!
Weeee...Weeee..
Baby buying handphone for me and him..
now both can use same phone..hehehehe
Hehehee

I love him sooo much!!!

Muacks!!
This Coming Sun will be like 8 months together! hehehehe
and i left about 1 year 5months in NS! hahaha
long2 way to go there.. hahahaha

Night

2010-02-20T21:40:00.000-08:00

Yesterday went out with wani,lan and fizah,elmo,nana,zam...
hahahaha long time never see all of them!

erm...i just want pics actually! HAHAHAHA

21st outfit

2010-02-19T20:27:00.000-08:00

Pain!

2010-02-18T05:11:00.000-08:00

How do you define pain?
i cant explain it, esp when i am having headache and flu, cough for the pass 1 week and more!
Its been killing me esp my headache!

I wonder how to stop it!
i tried everything!
Doctor! Panadols! Rest!

My Bday Just Went By!
Was Sick Also!

Sometimes i wonder the pain is only in my head or in my mind..or in my heart!

i dont know!

FUCK when i get sick!

Long Long Long Time!

2010-02-17T07:13:00.000-08:00

My best

2009-09-26T07:46:00.001-07:00

This Is the best i ever done i feel!

All The memories i had!!

2009-09-26T07:33:00.000-07:00

OMG!!
I soooo Missing The Times!!
HEHEHEH!!

Happiness

2009-09-26T06:55:00.000-07:00

So Once again out of boredom,

I was watching this singapore produced gay program on youtube

and It lead me to a website..

I took this out of the site

Its a local website which till now still exist!

I was very shocked!

just by reading the first paragraph...

Basically i am confused also!

Some say god has created us this way for some reason,

and i dunno why we should alter it?

If we are gay or lesbian or watever,

Why should we change?

Its not like the cloths u wear everyday u know

And Even thou u change ur cloths everyday!

u still decide wat to wear, becos u wanna feel happy!

So we should be happy as well for wat we are!!

Why change our happiness!

Looking At Youtube

2009-09-26T05:41:00.000-07:00

So Basically i was bored to death and decided to look through vids!
And I was looking at how Dump Singaporeans can be.
And Not knowing tat whatever is posted on the net can be seen worldwide!
And Yes i do have comments so share..

I hate it when Ppl Start to talk very loud in the bus/train/ or even around u.
I dun understand why u have to? when actually the person u are talking to is right beside u?
Is he/she deaf?
There is no such rules in the bus or anyway except in the lib saying u must talk softly,
u know why?
Becos its common sense!
We cant basically start putting rules
eg
No shitting in the bus
No Standing on one foot in the bus
No hugging in the trains
No Peeing in the bus or train

U know why we dun have them!?
BECOS ITS COMMON SENSE!!
singapore is a ever improving city, lifestyle and economy
If we wanna show tat we are one..
We gotta act like one..

Pictures of singapore on the post cards or Tv are so nice to see..
but The ppl living in the country can be a pain in the neck sometimes!

I was once in the train,
going to Tamp
And there was this teen and his Mum!
Basically there were talking soo loud and taking up 3 seats..
i dunno why? they wanna let the whole cabin know wat are they talking?
Might as well i get for them a portable mic or get them to wear a mic so all the radio stations can tune in to them right?

And Last week, if i am not wrong, I wanted to go meet my friend
So i board a bus..
and there was this group of teens..around 4 of them..
they were standing at the open space in the bus..
and there was this particular guy took soo much space tat whoever boards the bus and wanna move in.. has to squeeze through him..

And My Block!
There are these aunties or even uncles... digging through trash!
how do i know?
Well sometimes whenever i go down to get a drink, i will see tied trash bags near the bins.. and later in the night when i go down again, or the next day, i'll see all the items from the bag are out and creating a mess!
I Find it kinda immature!
how to educate?
It even happen to my trash?
Imagine one day u throw ur tongs or g-string?
and the next day u were in good mood and suddenly u see ur tongs on the floor?

I even seen it from my own eyes the person doing this!
Its not one person!
a couple of them from the same block!!

Saturday!

2009-09-26T04:01:00.001-07:00

Today,
mmmm anything interesting
mmmm Nope!!!

I Guess Today wont be fun neither will it be tml?
Miss My Love Soooo Much!

Guess Wat i've found!!

2009-09-25T11:26:00.000-07:00

OMG!!

These were the pictures taken during 2007

When I first started to really dance!

Haikal,Izzy,Dawn,Zeella,Me

Got Rudie also..but cant find his..

Omg!

i really2 miss the time we had together!

All the fun and laughter

All the Tears and pain

All The Suffering and Pushing

All Thanks to Izzy and Zeella

Practice those days

Used to be like On time Practice

Those late catch up urself

never come also the same

Izzy would Scold upside down!

And Practice means Practice

Once we step into dance studio

We start to practice till the time we were given to end!

No smoking breaks! nor Food breaks!

Drinks got.. 5mins or less!

Air Con Room, But We sweat as if the weather was 35Degrees!

It was super fun!! We all suffered together!!

No excuses from anyone,

I remembered i was once very sick!

Izzy Ask me to come down to dance!

and i went becos i know tat i at least can sit one side and see wats going on and wat to expect!

Now i comparing to Wat i have been doing,

You gals are lucky, i just never say much..

alot of time wasted!

Last time i cannot dance at all! cannot even shake my body or booty or ripple

And izzy's choreograhpy was tuff tat time for me..

And i still never give up,

I still get fucked up

But in the end it brought me up

Now i give my best in everything i do..

All Out!

Last time practice!

Izzy teach we also must give energy

Even when learning also

Even when we showing also

Even when we Practicing also!

No energy will kene fucked up!

And

He taught Us how to work together!

How team energy is important!!

But

Comparing it to the ppl now which i have

Haiz.. i stress!

I dunno how to help these gals anymore

I Feel like wanna Say good Bye and just leave..

From The start of the 1st day,

you guys asked for me and ryna's help

We said yes, and we were soft to u guys..

but sooner or later u all took advantage..

Last time

Izzy Teaching us time, no one will ask question or watever,

No Handphone allowed!

When he teaching means he teaching..

any nonsense he make noise!

no laughing2 all.. unless he laughs..

now,

I dun see the seriousness in these gals

maybe 1 or 2 yes..but i dunno...

Last time

When we gossip or bitch

We do it right infront of our faces..

Now,

I dunt even know wats going around

I feel like somethings happening in the room whenever i step into the studio

Maybe me and ryna regret doing all these from the start and even entering the studio

Maybe we dont...

Its just a mixed feeling!

I talked about this to Ryna

She knows how i feel

we both know!

Becos we know tat this will happen!

maybe tats why we both fucking angry

These is another issue

Even When we are old,

We must set good example

We must do so, so that the younger generation will do so too

If we the old ones keep recalling the old problems

definately the young ones will never forget..

we must not show them we still remember that issue..

so they will think tat "ouh they forgot about it, i guess we should too"

If We keep going back to the past, we never going to see the future.

I and ryna still remember wat was said by EVEYONE at the 1st time we taught u guys

Now i and her wonder,

was our decision wrong..

I still See hope,

But Everyday its decreasing

I Teach everytime

I decide wat u guys doing

I decide the song

I push u all

I think of choreography for u all, even thou i know i'm not good

I know whose good and whose not good

I know Who can dance and who is trying their best,

who is putting in energy

who can catch the steps fast

who shows the steps cleaner

who really follows the beat

who puts in flava

who is committed

who is deserving

who is going extra mile to practice on themself

And In the End,

one person's effort and decision is not bigger

everyone has to make it..

i and ryna remember wat was said during the 1st day!

Very freaking 1st day!

Why I want a all girl grp!!

Finally i can share it here without any interuptions!!!!!!!!!!!!

the reason becos

if there was 10 girls

the energy they put together will be more powerful!!

and looking the current girls..just 6

their energy like only to 3 or 2 gals in total!

and

why i dun want a mix grp

These gals are weak..

yes2 i know if u put the guys in, and wat if they are weak also right

no matter wat..if u put 2 guys in..

the ppl will mostly look at the 2 guys only..and the gals will look like backup dancers

look at me and the gals during last performance..the same thing happened!

regardless 2 or 4..the guys will have more energy to power them out..

becos the gals are doing well enough to proff their energy is there..

if the gals can do tat! i will not say anything..

but its sooooo obv there are not.. so a all gal grp will allow them to use eveyone's energy

to make it into a bigger energy!

logic!

And Foremost i know wats their chemistry like among them

Its not about judging just by seeing

if u all dun get it,

I dunno wat to say..

Why I writing these all in my blog and not saying it out

becos i think i not the same V i used to be

i think i dunt wanna have issues

So those who read these,

and feel its reffering to u and u are unhappy about it..

Tats not my problem,

dun even bother approaching me and talking about these,

you wanna tell the whole world go ahead,

i wont bother..

wanna start putting fake names or asking friends to hate tag me go ahead,

i wont bother...

Wanna Show stupid Faces or Talk about me when i go for breaks

Go ahead.. I love tat

Becos at least i'm still In Ppl's taughts

After months and its the same shit

So we Cant be bothered already

its like we used to it

even been through more worst than this issues!

But we will only bother about 1 person

Just 3 pics

and it helps me throw out all my feelings!

It really shows old times are the best times!

I really Miss Izzy's Teaching Alot!

He is really one of a kind

And always be love by me

And Zeella as well

Dawn as well

And haikal as well

PS: If got many spelling error or watever shit! i dun bother...

Becos i know you will say, talk so big but spelling wrong or english sucks or wat

i cant be bothered...

My honey's nonsense

2009-09-25T06:51:00.001-07:00

Old - New

2009-09-25T05:12:00.000-07:00

Ladies And Gentlemen

Guess what i've found!

My Old Pictures

Well It Goes From the Top, The oldest

To the bottom, the lastest of me

All These pics have special memories

Except the one, which is me in the boxers, that is a even special one!!

Weather!

2009-09-24T04:58:00.000-07:00

What the hell is wrong with the weather lately!!!
Esp today!
I was out to go to granny's place and bomb!
The sun's heat! and the hot wind!
Water was rolling down my fore head!
i had to take showers as many times just to cool myself down!

Its all our fault!
Use alot fo cars, Air con, etc
Cut alot of trees!

Use tissues like water!
Some even take so much in Macdonalds but in the end only use 1 or 2 only!
I don't even know whether Macdonalds recycle the tissues or the wraps they use after the food is consumed!
Look at the Q for ppl buying 4d/toto, All waste paper!
Same For this, dont even know whether the papers are recycled after the nums are being scaned!
Might as well just use some touch sreen num pads to key in the nums and pay them right!

Mrt stations should use some fans..for those not built underground ar..
Its Getting hotter and hotter!!!!
My journey from jurong to serangoon, I can still sweat when i reach Serangoon!!!

I'm complaining!
but here we are suffering from Economy, but not really cared about how can we save the earth!!
save the earth first!! than we can live longer to have a better Economy!
Its linked together.. We recycle paper, than we dun need to cut more trees, which leads to a better weather!

On a lighter note!

Must Save Money For BBQ!
Which i know i can do it!
and have been doing it!

damn sick

2009-09-20T02:15:00.000-07:00

Wtf happen just now V!

i was walking to 711 to get for my dad drinks
than ask i was walking back..
i started breathing fast
and i was opp my block and was buying super glue and i felt giddy and my vision when like..
i dunno how to explain..
now i at home on the bed!

ITS SICK TIME NOW!

Yawn

2009-09-19T09:58:00.000-07:00

Just Got Back From My aunt's Bday gathering!

Today is Hari raya!
Bf is going to be busy today and also tml..

Happy Bday To Nas!

so as i was saying
bf is going to be busy!
everyone is going to be busy

so basically V will be at home later and tml
stuck with family!!

I'm kinda worried
Dad bought a weekend car
39000
Every month me, my mother, Dad and Elder brother have to pay 100 bucks each
So yes i gg Ns, so i only will be able to pay for 2 years
wat happen after the 2 years when i am going to study again??!
its for 7 years u have to pay!!
and my elder brother is working on contract! wat happens when his contract ends sooner or later??
how!!
Mum make a big issue about it when i told her tat!!
Fuck ar! she dun understand wat i am trying to tell her
I rather save myself before even drowning in money!

I haven told dad!
well lets just see how it goes from here ar!

So as usual i am paying 1/4 of the money
i get to use the car as well!!
hahaha unless i get my auto car licence soon!!
HAHAHA!!

Saturday

2009-09-19T03:48:00.000-07:00

Wah.. A week has gone by soooo fast!
Tml is like hari raya already..
happy hari raya to all my friends...

Lets start from
upcoming events

- 27th sep, i will be performing at paris ris
- 29th Sep, Love
- 2nd Oct, I am doing a BBQ ( only Invited Guest )
- 3rd Oct, I will be performing at Serangoon ( BHCC )
- 4th Oct, Hari raya show at Serangoon ( BHCC )
- 5th Oct, Gathering with friends
- 6th Oct, NS!!!

One Thing i should never do is
Sending out mass text messages wishing everyone
becos everyone replys me back at the same time
and i am so stress becos my phone lags!!!
point to note!

Nothing interesting happen lately
just tat i cant sleep well
mmmm other than tat..
nothing much ar

i just cant wait for my bbq!
going to be fun!!

Ps: Should i Smoke Weed?

ROM

2009-09-06T23:39:00.000-07:00

I went for a wedding today!
wasat little india
its my cousin's wedding
My dad's elder sister's Son's wedding!
hahahah

He is like 28 this year..
a year older than my brother

Well, i wish them both the most happinest moments in their life

when will my brother get married?

When will i get married with my bf!

Trip To melaka

2009-09-06T23:23:00.000-07:00

Well i was off to melaka for a holiday/Relative visit!

no pic of me..

but pics of my way there and stuff
gg to post just 10pics if tat is enough

My Way after crossing tuas check point to malaysia checkpoint

This is at Malaysia's check point

Just Reach melaka central

Near My Cousin's Place

Dinner at Some place called Newton

Gg to go for shopping!!

Still At shopping!!

On my way to Sg..

This is at Johor already!!

Getting it off

2009-08-29T09:38:00.000-07:00

Today
which was my 1 month, was at home the all day
deary fallen sick, due to a day where we both got caught in the heavy rain..
hahahaha
He has taken off as well for later
good he can rest finally...

So before i was blogging
i was watching AXN , The haunted house
Hahaha
have u guys ever wondered why ghost appears only at night?
like after 12midnight?
and they are not around in the morning and afternoon?
its kinda weird how humans always believes word of spread and turn it into a fact..
and spoiling the child's mind, giving them the impression that "if u dun sleep at night, the boogie man will catch u" or etc...
funny thou, as i am 20..
My chair actually just shook before i was blogging...
as if someone else sat on it again...
mmmm maybe just my weird imagination....

fasting month... the ghost all wont come!!
BUT
chinese ghost month... The ghost all wondering around!!!

which is which....

cuteness...
well i got about 35 days?
to NS
never really count..
but just a random number...
I CANT WAIT!!!

NS : POLICE
STATUS : ATTACHED
INCOME : NOT YET!!

i need more to fill up my boring life profile!!

Att: i will link u guys up soon.. just abit lazy ar.. hahahaha sowie..soon alright..sorry

Big Day

2009-08-28T09:09:00.000-07:00

today is my 1 month with my bf!!

ah... i fucking love him to the core!!

it will last forever and forever

i love u adrian

Days of Dawn

2009-08-25T06:10:00.000-07:00

I have been at home today!
i very stress recently!

My ex has been bothering me
i told him already i not interested
but he still insist for me to give him a 2nd chance
and also he asking me to reconsider my decision
which i already have
and its a no! to him!

i already have my love of my life!
no one will come in between us!

i just dunno wat to do..
he always been texting me!
i feel like changing my number!
but i dunt know how to change number! HAHAHAH!!
its like wat since i was sec 2 i had tat number and its like i am 20 now..
sec 2 is 14? 6 years of tat number!
time to change!!

Not going to give anyone tat number!!
except for certain ppl tat is!!

Tml i have lots of thing to do
Gg to little india to help mum take some things
than go to mustafa centre to get something for the gals..
than get myself something
than by a new mp3 at jurong point..or maybe a Ipod?? see ar!
hahaha
yes definately a new shoe!!
hahaha!!!

I going get for my love a ring!
i dunt know where to get it!
but yes definately getting him one by tml

becos after all the shopping..
i will be back home
and we will be going out!
and maybe having a night at ecp with him!

The Msg from him

b,when i read ur msges,

i think of u

and

when i think of u

i think of ur face

and

when i think of ur face

i cried,

becos

i couldnt touch u and kiss u

and

let u hug me tightly

i love u so much b....

blue, Ur fav colour

Over Grown Beard

2009-08-23T07:53:00.000-07:00

Been Lazing around at home
just waiting for wednesday
monday is taken up
so as tuesday
yes wednesday and thursday
definately friday

When will i have time for Vday?
hahahah

Pictures!!

2009-08-17T00:26:00.001-07:00

I LOVE MY SELF!!!

I LOVE MY LOVE!!!

412 post

2009-08-04T08:01:00.000-07:00

I just notice this is my 412th post...
too much nonsense i must have typed

nevertheless i went missing for 4 days?
since friday i think i did not blog?

Friday
Was fun!
i met my boyfie! aww!!
the sweetest thing ever!!!

Saturday
Practice
I think i met Izzat one tat day?
and did video with fawly and dydy and sany and lily

Sunday
Taught it was a rehearsal skali was a performance
Than Went out with Kid junior,Rihin,Zairi
kecoh!

Monday
I Went out with boyfie!
he came over to my house..
eat and watch movie..
than we went for a hair cut
Catched a movie at JP - watched hangover!
than headed over to his place..about 10pm already
took his car when to jurong hill top!
he liked it!
he taught me how to drive!
now i can drive manual as well!! weee! not really as confident as i am to Auto!
hehehe
than he send me back about 1am already?
yea
His the sweetest thing ever!!

much love from me!

Radzie came back to Sg earlier than expected!
congrats to him as well!
Hope he got me something!

Today(Tuesday)
I was at home the whole day!
weee
i watched lets see
First Touch(Channel 5)
achar(Channel 5)
style by jury(Channel 5)
CSI:NY( Star world)
Whose line is it anyway ( Star world )
Simpsons ( Star World )
Hope and Faith ( Star World )
hahahah

Tml is Wednesday!
Wednesday is going to be Soooo Wednesday!!

Love

2009-07-31T09:15:00.000-07:00

I went out with hubby!

I had lots of fun!

he came over to my house

than he drove to makan

and than to seleta(hope correct spelling) Rev

Sunset view there is great

We spent the whole day together!

I love u soo much

View From where we sat

He will always be mine and no one else

Always Prefer to be th BadBoy

Maybe

2009-07-29T10:47:00.000-07:00

I am extremely tired!
seriously travelling around in public can go crazy
esp during rush hour!
hot weather somemore!

Well my uncle and his wife came back for london for a 1month..
he'll be leaving after a month back to his home at london
so i must watch out for him
he has many contacts!
popular lah sgt!

hahaha

This is for Radzie!
u better take care of urself!
u ask me why am i so concern over u
becos i treat u as my own brother..
someone who i feel comfortable with
so i gg to miss u bro when u go on holiday this friday for a week!
Many misses to u too
hope u get me something!

This is for alif adrian
I really am happy for having u with me
thou we only know for a few days
but the chemistry built was good!
i will always take care of u nomatter wat
even if we fight or we make love..
u will always be taken care off k?
dun worry soo much
i will try my very best in my part to be someone good to u and lasting okie?
many misses to u tooo
love ya

B for

2009-07-28T03:07:00.000-07:00

B Is For BORING FUCKING DAY!

Meet up

2009-07-27T11:19:00.000-07:00

I Love Meet Ups!
finally i got time to meet friends!!

Today i met up with Fizah,Netty,Kholid and surprise guest Wani!
Omg!
I had sooooo much fun with them!
treat them to dinner!
than we headed to forum coffee bean to chill!!

Kholid was irritating as usual!
Fizah as usual crazy
Netty on her net
Wani joining in the fun!

Love them to the core!
esp kholid!
hahahaha!
kidding!!!

Day of Comp

2009-07-26T01:56:00.000-07:00

I had sooo much fun in the competition

We pulled it off eventually!

so happy!!!

I saw alot of ppl!

those whom i dunno and those whom i know!

I had lots of fun!!!

Me and E-Pul
Me

Me with Dylismarcell

Stage Marking

2009-07-26T01:29:00.000-07:00

This Pic Was taken on Friday 24th july

During our stage marking for da showcase

Had lots of fun i tell ya!

Kid kene Bullied!!

Me,Meself

Left: Sany,Me,Kid,Zairi

Far right Bottom: Rihin

Left: Sany,Me,Kid,Zairi
Bottom: Rihin,Dino

Me N Kid

Me And RJ

2009-07-25T23:21:00.000-07:00

2009-07-23T10:04:00.000-07:00

Me And Dydy

Tiring as always..

norm for ppl to hear me say tat

Alot of events coming up..

i'm not dancing but just helping someone to find ppl to dance..

31st July, 2Aug, 3Oct

mmm how?

hahahah

Nothing from u today

guess u are really tired and busy from work

just worried becos u are sick

hopefully u are taking care of urself

i do miss u thou

Channel News

2009-07-20T10:08:00.000-07:00

News Headline

I Am Leaving VOGUELICIOUS as of july 25th 2009!
Thanks to each and everyone of you guys to push me to as far as i can go!
Good luck to you guys!
Best Wishes In Your Future Shows

Next
U called me to say i miss you
i was shocked!
and i cant remember wat i said to know becos i was touched!
Must drink plenty of water so u will feel better
dun overwork urself
try to share ur workload with others okie?
i miss u more than u do!

My beloved Bestie Forever Fizah!

2009-07-20T09:55:00.000-07:00

Saturday Madness!

2009-07-19T03:22:00.000-07:00

yesterday i had 2 hours of sleep only before i went out to meet someone..
we went to changi beach to just hang out..
so i brought my tent..was there before noon?
tats how early we were there..
HOT weather!!
i had so much fun than headed to changi village to makan
than saw a flea market..he got crazy..hahaha
bought kinda alot of stuff
than took a cab and sent me off to aljunied..
i was carrying 2 bags!
i with all the tent..and tat was heavy!
so it was like already 7pm? than i rush to serangoon..
change train here and there...stress
with heavy bag..
than reached serangoon by 8pm? than teach the class than ended at 10.30pm..
than i headed to admirtly met my friend he wanted to talk..
than i miss the last train at 12.38am..
than took a bloody cab home...arh! tired already by than...
reached home bath and i was on bed..waiting for my younger brother to pass me the lappy and the next thing i know..i was dead asleep till today!

today i met fizah..becos mum wants me to take something from gekpoh CC
than i also wanted to alter my jeans..
so yea..than i went to meet her..
suppose to meet shillah..but cancelled..
than i wanted to watch harry potter!
so yes i am!
with fizah later at 10.15pm..
hehehe!
its gg to be a date with her!!
hahhahah

The time Spent with you was enjoyable

I Really was happy from wat you said

and i hope i can know u even more!

Friday

2009-07-16T23:31:00.000-07:00

Friday is so friday
all the plans today was cancelled
so i am planless? hahahaha
i haven get my tongue stud!
how!!

i sure gg to get scolded tml..
becos i haven get the proper stud....
oh my..
no one to go out with as well

WEEE
i just called fizah..meeting her in like 30mins time..
ciao ppl

Dont Know

2009-07-16T09:57:00.000-07:00

Well Today had a meeting with voguelicious
Details wont be mention

Than me and rihin rushed to Admirtly to go prac
Well we soughta completed everything?
i think so...
i dunno know...

Had Adult talk with my kak sany!
hahahaahha!!!
thou he is only so called 24

than i ate ice-cream! yummy2!!
i was licking it good!

Than i called it a day, we had bitch talk!
Funny or wat!
i talk fast i know!
becos i think faster..
hahaha
i not saying u guys think slow..
but actually Slower ( i know very DIVA! )
hahah kidding!

came home..took shower and stuff
He called..
about saturdays outing
Kinda Excited thou...
very actually..
than after tat must rush to serangoon to teach a class and also practice
2 - 1...
mmm long time never try 3some.. nor i never tried it before also okie!!
i dun think i might wanna also...

Virgin mouth, Virgin Butt, Virgin Dick!
I AM VIRGIN!!!
hahahahahahahhahahahah
i know wat!

PS: Maybe i should play it hard

Cam Whore so they say

2009-07-15T23:00:00.000-07:00

This Pics Were Taken Yesterday
During Dance Practice
It was Wednesday yesterday
to i felt very wednesday
today i will be feeling like thursday!
Dance Prac has been gg fun so far!
Gald to see everyone happy once more

Me and sany
Sany

Lily & Fawly

Ryna,Anna,Zairi

Lily And Fawly

Thou i dun get to meet u often

I still think of ya

Yea everything do start from friendship..

hope it will not just stay as friends...

Lets make this interesting, fun And Craving for..

Jim Bean

2009-07-14T10:39:00.000-07:00

Mmmmm
wat else can make me go high
Beer? Wine? snift glue?

Weird someone ask me on msn
just
how u gg to have kids when i dun like gals?
hahahaha
i have no intention to get married nor have kids!
i hate both! not saying i hate kids..
commitment to have kids its so high!
higher than taking care of myself!

hahaha

Today date was cancelled..
nah its not ur fault..
i told ya u have to have rest.
so nothing wrong
there is friday or saturday or any other days..
not to worry

I love dance prac today
should have more jim bean

Point To Note

2009-07-13T10:40:00.000-07:00

My Links Have been Deleted away!
I have saved them to my com
Sorry to everyone
i have tooo many links.. (popular lah sgt)
some are still in use..
Some change never tell me(bitch)
Some i dun even know who...
so i will be doing a clean up..give me some time thou
been busy and will be busy..
so if u do not see ur link appear after i am done with everything which is by maybe sunday..
than its not my problem that u are not linked
Becos i cant be bothered to entertain...

Good Day Gone Bad2

2009-07-13T10:30:00.000-07:00

Today I met my Sis! At Admirlty!

hahah so happy to see him seriously!

very2 happy sia!!

hahahaha

Morning i work up from a msg from u as well..

kind of u text me..

Had a OK practice today

thou i know i am stressing myself up too much already!

Than i had bad news at night! when otw home!

i hated it seriously but well i dunno..

i just dun like last min stuffs..

Now i am still awake..

just thinking away..

Gg to be on the phone as well later...

as per normal..

sleeping late and waking up late

Tml( later ) i not gg for practice

i am sorry guys...

Wed prac,Thurs prac, Friday gg to party.. hope dydy and sany can come along..

Sat i not gg for rehearsal i got something on

Sat night i gg to serangoon to help and prac also i still got something on..

Sunday well REST!! hahahahah

may rest ar..see wats up on sunday!

Its been long since i kissed a guy

Now tat i have my tongue peirced..

it should be more fun as wat others said so..

This Pic.. Me and Azmy!

We were from the same sec school and primary school

he is older than me ar..

we used to HATE each other..

now he is my bbf!

Best Bitch Friend!!

Hope he has fun in NS!

Good Day Gone Bad

2009-07-12T22:43:00.000-07:00

I went out yesterday
well had lunch at aljunied..
than took the train to kallang and than took a bus down to wheelock..
hhaahah
went to borders..
looked and around decided to sit at wheellock and chit chat..
well i serious had so much fun..
it was sometime where i never had this kind fun...
that it is when i had a bad news..
haiz...
after we said our good byes everything else when bad...
seriously no mood..
i was on my bed..after the phone call..

i kept thinking about my day..
till i sick already.
now got flu and headache..
haiyo...
hopefully i get well by the time i head to practice soon...

Door way

2009-07-09T10:50:00.000-07:00

Fun there, Worried here

wat should i do.. sleep or be awake..
just dunno when i wanna say it..
thanks fauzi for listening to me..
hahahahah
weird tat i actually open up to him ar..
but well he is a good listener for sure!

I left speechless already
i know i gg to do a evil thing..
i know i should stop myself from doing it..
but i cant help it..
its like i see alot of things and it makes me just wanna do tat evil thing ar..
u guys dun understand how i feel like now..
even thou u guys might say u been thru this and tat..but i feel totally different...

Wont be sleeping i guess
Just let the door way be open to let me just say it to u

Not On

2009-07-08T09:33:00.001-07:00

today had my prac again..
as usual
everyones getting sick!
pls3 i hope i dun!! i dunt wanna be at home the whole week!!
Unless the police officers coming over to must house are hot maybe i wanna get sick for weeks!!
hahahah
Bitch me!

haiz the memorial..
i missed thou..
but someone was so into it!

Do u guys ever feel sometimes u see other couples like having their sweetest time..
even just by laying down on their lap..
and letting time pass by
and u just happen to notice tat
u think to urself why i am still single?
why i dun get this...
and u just cant keep u eyes off tat scene!

i dunno ar..
fuck tat shit

DIY

2009-07-07T09:42:00.000-07:00

Today was the 1st time prac for the DA SHOWCASE comp with dylis..
my back is hurting me serious..
i have to just bare with it..
no choice!
argh!

but well okie ar..went smoothly..
need to brush here and there thou..

I look at others whom have like bf or even a date who meets up with them
i get jealous
i wonder why i cant get into a situation like tat..
have someone u love coming down to see u practice and take care of u and stuff
but well i just have to swallow it down i guess

If only i have the Guts to say it right to u..how much u meant to be!
how much u actually made me fall u.. i would say it
but its a risk i will have to take...
if u accept it, i will be the most happiest guy on earth
if u accept it and reject wat i say and still contact me i still be happy..becos at least u know i care for u
If u totally reject it!, i will just be a stone, laying around just being nothing anymore..

But well i just guess its not the right time yet

I told my elder brother finally after 5 months of my psp got stolen..
i never tell him directly..more like texted him..
i was afraid thou..but i hope everything goes well...
haiz...

Stress on another stress on another stress
just wish could see u and just listen to all ur timeless nonsense and everything will be fine for me..

Evil eye

2009-07-05T08:22:00.000-07:00

Am i really tat sissy?
i know yea i know, i do have some gal in me! but am i tat Sissy?

I try to be manly...trying to be lah!
if tat is wat u like! than i will be.. and i not doing it becos u like! but also becos i want to as well!

Interesting how i can still take it sooo long!
how i still manage to like just keep my eyes on u..and not on others...
very weird of me to be doing tat becos well single guy mah...
but i feel like shit when i see other getting into attached status super fast..
when its actually taking super long for me to even call it dating...

Very long! so interesting how i can still last now...
dunt know wats keeping me going actually.....

Does apply bleach(for washing cloths) on the face will make me go fair?
if it does i will do it!

Monday(today) - Might Meet Totot
Tue - Might Meet Tat Gong2 For Lunch Than meeting dylis,ryna,rihin for prac
Wed - Same ( Dance )
Thurs - Same ( Dance )
Friday - Nothing Much ( some plans Pending )
Sat - mum's Bday And Her Singing Competition Finals on TV and Also Me and ryna(haven ask her) to teach a group of gals 3 lesson on hiphop at a CC and Might Wanna Go Ask Vogue whether wanna go supperclub
Sunday - Nothing much ( Some Plans Pending )

Surprising how i got my days fixed so fast...

Well Still holding On....
Waiting for that one day to tell the truth...

Lost

2009-07-05T00:52:00.000-07:00

Yawn!
Yesterday performance at Play was Super urber fun!!
it was great!
than we headed to SupperClub!
1st time i'm gg there...
voguelicious goes there almost everyweek i think?
It was super Fun!!
I love the music!
I Love the Mats there ar!
Cute ones all got..! BUT seriously the music there is like Drugs!
Like fun!

Well Was not interested in anyone there..
becos i know i wanna give it all to u!
And yea u think u know..but actually.. very nonsense u know u!

Wat am i thinking?
telling u wat i feel... u find out for urself!
whether was it about u mention my facebook..
hahaha
so when u got it right or watever just tell me..

hahahaha
i dunt wanna say it right now..
let this take some time!

defused

2009-07-02T11:49:00.000-07:00

I dunno..
something deep within me tell me tat my parents aint over the issue tat i like guys!
cmon its been over a year already!
i know they dun want their son to turn out this way..
but well i did..why didnt they taught of tat
every single being blamed upon me just becos i like men
i know they indirectly find trouble with me becos of issue
but wat fuck do i care?

actually i care..
becos i still living here mah
tats why
once i can stand up really high on my 2 feets,
boom all ties broken

I always taught i am adopted..
but the lifestyle between me and my brothers are different..
i dun look like mum nor like my dad
My younger brother has similar characteristics as my elder brother
my younger bro looks like my dad..
My elder bro looks like my mum?
i think i look like their house maid!

ah stress u know
jai ho Mampos!
i learn tat choreo today!
i scared!
1 more day left to performance
1 more day left for me to really get it right!
and i lost concentration!
damn hate it!
need to buck up V, need to buck up

To this following person
i not gg to give up..
u know i wont..
but well lets see how things goes....

Tml gg to Support FIS at Double O!
tat will be right after practice..
than going to supper club i think after double O!
more tiring i know
than sat meeting up early for something..than
practice than might be gg to supper club to see veron solo..
than head to Play for our performance..
at 11pm
than i think i might party all night ar..

somehow i gg to say something!
its gg to be funny ar to some

When u really fall in love and will wait for that someone..
looking at others guys no matter how hot they are, knowing urself u still single..
the feeling is not there! yup!

A day
nights everyone

Fuck

2009-06-30T10:53:00.000-07:00

Why the title Fuck?
its just a word
but it seems to actually make everyone feel satisfied after saying it!

well i gg to say it
FUCK FAMILY!
FUCK LOVE!

I just wish i was in NS right now
which i have to wait for like another wat 3 months more!
its gg to be my eye opener!
i gg to be independent becos i dun not wanna see my family anymore
nor even be related to them!!
2 weeks in NS!
i gg to be happy not seeing their faces
once i book out i gg to come home get changed! head out!
come home the next day!
just sleep the whole night prepare for sunday book in!
tats how my NS routine gg to be!!!
pre planned!
i gg to stay in camp as much as possible!!!!

1st month pay - get paint for my room! and make it MY ROOM! not something which my stupid family ones! and get a PSP!

i hate it!
its always me getting fucked up at home!
its like i never been gg out recently
seriously very less!
and today is like the once i been out the whole day and its only at jurong!
and they make a big fuss!!
i dunno!!
sick and tired living here! seriously!
they are the reason why i turn gay!
they are the reason why i dun wanna get married!!

stupid ppl!
FUCK FAMILY!
tat felt good

no love from family
so seek love from someone i love!
well its difficult!
why becos i am a freaking indian?
indians - Stick? Black? Ugly?
Fuck ar..
why we call ourself racial harmony
when Chn want Chn... Mly want Mly... ind want Ind?
u can say no... not true.. GO IRC!! go see... everymin got ppl asking... Seek CHN only! seek this only!
seek my mother pussy fuckers!
ah! Irritating! bloody irritating u know!!
i not even typical ind!
Fuck ar...

i know u dunno i have a blog..good also
becos i know we still friends..
but i dunno why u keep me gg on..and
so do i keep u living..but we still friends
does any taughts came across ur mind tat this is something??!
i have hopes on u.. and i know i gg to hurt myself till u have it on me..
but sometimes no pain no gain..

i hope get love at least from u!

FUCK LOVE!
FUCK FAMILY!

mistery

2009-06-27T11:30:00.000-07:00

Well
Mr Pendek here thinks he has a better back..
well i think i have nicer! hahahhaahha

I am Worried Sick!
seriously!
be safe
get back safe
cant sleep again i think!
Dun miss me!! HAHAHAHAH!

Long Long Long

2009-06-20T00:14:00.000-07:00

Hahaha
ppl ask me my blog dead ar?
i think so?
i dunno ar..
hahahahaha
i dunno wat to write in already

Updates!
I am still single
Still alive
Still V

Sad

2009-04-26T08:37:00.000-07:00

For tat special someone ar

U know who u ar.
i want to say.. even if it was just 2 days of knowing u.. we relate greatly as friends!
i really hope things between u guys work out well.. i really wish
i know i like u alot! serious shit... becos ur cool and funny and like to bully me verbally!
u think that once if it ends between u guys.. tats the end of me.. but u dunno how i really gg to feel if u just leave me hanging there becos of someone who left u...
u think after u leave her..everything for u is gg to be fine.. but for me?
have u ever taught of someone else whom cares and corncern for u, is gg to feel?
its easy u gg to not contact me and just dissappear slowly but i'll be like damn! how i miss tat Guy!

I always had friends as girls..
I always taught i can relate more to gals!
but u are tat guy who now i relate as much as i can to a girl..
tat brotherly love!
thou our age are not far apart!
I think soo much just now as i was in the train..
i actually i wanna cry.....
but i dunno... i always have been giving tat answer.. i dunno..
maybe i am afraid of loosing things..
loosing someone who i really find interesting and friendly and great!
why must this happen to me again!

i taught i went thru this once, twice was enough..
but i think i gg to go thru this again..

how will i ever feel the same again!!
i dunno how u will feel once everything is gone..
but definately i know i will feel sad and afraid to know anyone again!

I'm not being selfish or wat..
but i dun care wat others will say or others will think..
why would i wanna bother about they sayings if our friendship just bothers about me and u?
if they happen to say stories, its not our lost.. nor its not our problem... becos in the end we still gg to be as friends.. and not be affected by them...

therefore
thats all i can say...
the overall decision lies in you..
i know u said when ur mind is set.. is set..
but do just give a taught about it...
think about it this time...

Think
Am i just gg to be a passing could, just a memory,
or someone whose gg to help u paint the colours in ur life?
Think

I will greatly extend my arms to u..
just to help u in anything u need..
even if i cant do much to help u..
just by listening to wat u say and being there...
I can do tat....

Lastly i wanna say
I'm extremely grateful and lucky to be ur friend!

HAPPY!

2009-04-25T23:29:00.000-07:00

I GOT ENLISTED TO THE POLICE FORCE!!
OCT 6, 8.30am @ HTA!

Ar!!!

2009-04-17T07:17:00.001-07:00

I'm still fucking sick!!
scared to travel also!
later vomit here and there!!

Met fizah at my area
and now i got pimple! at my nose!!
CB!!
ARGH!!!
stupid being sick
i feel so dumb being sick sia!!!

Wah liao!!
cant think also!!
very funny sia!!

Another Day

2009-04-17T00:03:00.000-07:00

Another day of being Sick!
And now i cant hear things well..
i have to go HUH!
hahahaha

so if i did! sorry?
hahahaha
argh!!
i hate it!!

PS: I like guys with long hair!

2nd For ITE DANCE COMP!

2009-04-14T06:05:00.000-07:00

Today! i did not sleep...
i slept for 5 mins..
than i work up and rush to meet wani at city hall at 8am..
i was there a little late
made our way to ITE bishan! today is out final day!
the competition day
did our make up and stuff
saw voguelicious darling doing guest performance!
than the comp started..
we were the last team..the 6th team..
so as we count down..
my nervous system went crazy!
than after we performed... so slipperly sia the floor!
than we did our best..
and came the battle part..
nanep represented us! and he did DOPE!
than came the results..
1 by 1 got the nervous..
than left 4 teams..
we were one of the 4..
than left 3 teams...we were one of the 3
omg! than left 2 teams
we were one of the teams...
hahahaha
was just left with TMC and Snickers!
hahahaha

And the winner is TMC!

we got 2nd!
we were super happy about it!
really2 happy!
than after tat..
omg the weather is so fucking hot!
and now i am SICK!!
i'm at home!
SICK!
SICK!
SICK!

Seesha!

2009-04-12T09:11:00.000-07:00

Yesterday..
we were suppose to meet up at 4.30pm
yes i was there at 4.30pm..
so i decided to do some solo shopping at bugis street..
and it was just drizlling alittle bit...
no harm..
bought all my stuff..
and wanted to cross the road to topshop!
Fuck ar.. so much ppl!!
i have to wait for like 5 greens light to pass before i could even get myself across...
The LTA have to do something about tat place...its so cramp!!

Wani and lan were there at 5..
we went to do another shopping..this time is lan and wani...hahahaha
and i did shop again!!
hahahaha
than as wanted to go shopping.
My dearest darling FIZAH called!
i was super happy!! really!!
and she was joining us wit her friend Nana!
so we went to makan at haji lane...than seesha
@ going OM!
our FAV place!
so wani and Nana decided to do express nail...
took like wat 1hr?
Express indeed
than we seesha all the way..play games and stuff
Fizah and Nana had to leave..becos they had a long getaway and need to rest..
so left me wani and lan
than around 11pm lan left...
at 11 plus Oliver came..
i was waiting for him actually
so left me and wani..we ended our seesha at like 12mn..hahaha
than go up..wait for wani Bf to pick her up..
i was still there till like 2am..
than i was having headache
so oliver send me back home..till jurong ar..
Very sweet of him!!
really!!
haiz.... if only i got the guts to say how much he really meant to me..
than i saw RSC again under my block..slack awhile..
and i head home..
Woke up today..
got changed and went for dance prac at Esplanade underground..
practice till we got it right..
and head by home!hahahaha
tml also dance!!!

OMG
i cant wait for coming saturday!
Party time!!!

Today

2009-04-09T09:41:00.000-07:00

Today i went out!
tats all i have to say!
went to bugis!

Than at night i met with syahmi and jackson!
syahmi treated us to dinner at teh tarik!!
wooohoooo
we were full giler eh!!
hahahaha
sedap!!!
hahahahahaha
tml we gg seesha!! weee!!
hahahaha

and now i come home i have this issue!
i really cant be bothered already!
argh!! alot of things in my head..and i have this also..
Irritating!!

well

2009-04-08T10:25:00.000-07:00

Well..
Its been a tiring week again...
hahahaha
but it was definately fun...
on the other hand..
all my friends having their down moments...
I really wish i can help them out as much as possible..and i am trying to!

Smack tat cancel..

so next comp at ITE bishan
14th april
our grp name Snickers!!
cute kan!!

hahahahahah
Very kecoh ar just now during prac esp for DIVA!hahahaha

Erm
I hope Jeff;s sis gets well soon!

I hope salwa gets well also

I hope Fizah gets well

Wani forever happy now..
hhahahaha

Sara also... better be good girl!!
hahahahah

CT - Hope ur love life goes well! i'm sorry

Mmm

2009-04-06T09:07:00.000-07:00

As u guys can see..
i still waiting for the picS!!
hahahahah

Ouh tat someone meet someone today!
thinks tat is making me jealous!
but i'm not!
hahahahahahahahhahahha

And on the other hand!

I fucking angry ar!
the competition is cancelled!
Stupid sia!
becos we already did the song..
choreo their song choosen
Taught of everything already..
kinda like 80 percent done!
And now gone!
everyday of practice gone....
so fed up

Tml and wednesday got practice with Dydy and the rest for ITE comp
Thurs and Fri go look for FULL-TIME job and go str to Poly or Nafa or MDIS to apply for school..
Look for FULL TIME if i never get school...work till NS!

Sat i got plans with Besties..
Sunday got with vogue but not sure tat one..
Monday Prac again..
Tue the comp

Netty

2009-04-05T22:25:00.000-07:00

WELL This Lastest Target Is By Friends Demand!!!
PLS CLICK ON PIC TO ENLARGE TO SEE CONTENT!!
THANKS!

Jeffrey

2009-04-05T02:39:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went out With Jeffrey!

funny sia he!!!

He still owes me alot of pics ar!!

NICE2 PICS!

love it so much!!!

hahahha he very funny and always shy!

hahaha and he like my twin sister sah!!

Except that i'm more cuter than me...

Have i have more pics than i talk about it more!!

2009-04-03T08:44:00.000-07:00

IF U GUYS CANT SEE WAT IT IS! JUST CLICK ON IT TO ENLARGE!!

weee

2009-04-03T05:06:00.000-07:00

Somehow i'm blogging again!
damn not a good sign!

hahaha
today was a good boy stayed at home!!
hahahaha
but in 1hr time i meeting one of my friend..
his driving so thank god..i not walking2 around..
penat!!
so meeting him around 9plus..
than after i meet him..
i will be meeting syahmi and jackson and fizah at boon lay again!!
hahahaha
syahmi ask to lepak!
at 9pm
but i'll be out..so meeting them later...
hopefully all guys come..
later i'll be the only girl!!!!
hahahah

I think my feelings towards u is no longer there!
i very scared to hurt ur feelings
but i dun wanna put u on despair...
its hurtful but i think i need to let u go..
i know u will be reading this!
but i'm extremely sorry!!
we still are friends okie!!
the reason why i dun wanna cont this is becos
1. i've commited myself to voguelicious fully for this competition. I dun wanna bring them down and i love them so much
everyday we practice.. i reach home after hours..sleep next morning wake up " OPPS late for practice!"
hahahahah
2. I think u are just not right one for me... sorry to say that... u are young and i kinda find young men abit immatured...depends ar..but u are one of them...
3. We just dunno wat to talk about, like no chemistry... Ur likes are different from my likes.. notice that sometimes we talk on the phone, we have some long pauses?
4. I'm Sorry, i'm really2 sorry i cant say it on the phone to u or even text a msg to u
but i know those 2 will really hurt u the most... so this is the best way i can say everything out...

So as of today, now we are nothing more than just friends okie?
Sorry!

Back to happy side of life!
tml is the big day!!
My friend coming over from Overseas!! wooohooo!!

OUH!

2009-04-02T11:25:00.000-07:00

Ouh i forgot to mention!
Someone i really love and miss so much has become single already
and i suppose to meet him yesterday but i had practice
maybe i'll drop by soon to see him!
his always busy with his shop!!

Well Well Well

2009-04-02T11:02:00.000-07:00

i'm blogging again?
becos of alot of ppl have been asking me why so dusty!
hahahahha
like no time?
hahahaha

Well i dun wanna start by all the bullshit love life and stuff...
tooo into facebook!

Anyway before hand

VOGUELICIOUS is competing in SMACK TAT 360
at Sengkang on the 11th april!
more details will be informed when its nearing
TICKETS gg for 3dollars each from us(we only have 10)
and on DOOR!(LIMITIED!)

Ouh!
I kinda find sarah natasha date CUTE!
omg!
i know he straight!
and damn he knows i wanna get to know him!
and he said his find being my friend first!
hahahah
and i cant wait to go out with him and sarah!
very random i bump into her recently!!
hehehehehe
I must be straight looking tat day!
cannot go out kewat!!
Serious his face like super cute hor!
so straight!!

Than next Voguelicious has been cracking me up!
the intro funny giler ar!!
hahaha
very2
hahahahahahahahahahahha
I cant stoop laughing now!!

I miss alot of ppl!!
ALOT!!
cant wait to catch up with them!

HEHEHEHE
i still wanna talk about the new friend i gg to meet becos of sarah natasha!!
I gg hoooohaaa over him ar!!
but i dun wanna say much, later he think i crazy!!!

Next.. i'm meeting another guy on 4th april!
his coming all the way from london?
hahaha hahah just a friend!!
he very funny thou!

and next question
when will i blog again?

i dunt know

PS: i gg to delet alot of links away from my blog!
esp to those who change their links and never tell me

LASTLY!!
I'M NOT FREE YET!!

I have to pay desmond 70 bucks!!
i haven get my chingay money!
once i get tat i pay him straight away sia!
i'll just transfer him the money!
lazy to go all the way so far to pass it!
Transfer...modern society!
Once i'm done i'm super free!
And i wonder where is our 300dollars voucher has gone to???
I want to use my share to get something!!!

pain

2009-02-16T08:19:00.000-08:00

To my dear friend!
i know i met u only 3 times if i can remember!
yesh! it was a waste tat i never knew u earlier!
u really had been a nice person!
i know u cant live him but deep2 inside i know wats gg on!

Guess wat!

2009-02-12T21:42:00.000-08:00

Things happened in class today!
3/4 of the class has been waiting for this day!
hahahaha
seriously

Bitching here and there!
so wat if u think i cant dance?
u think i dance like a stick!
eh cmon ar bitch.. u said u have dance background when u wear young..
and now u just dance like a huge gorilla!
actually u are one..
becos a girl with ur size, u do talk like one and act like one
boastful bitch..
thinking tat i dunno wats gg on around me..
everything knows wats gg on..
not just me who got bitched..
the rest as well..
We just waiting for the Fire to start!
and it has!!
So Happy!!
everyones so happy!!
Everyones just smiling and u all.. its just plastic..we have our bitchy moments..
I might even be soft or watever to u guys!
but i DEFINATELY BITCH BETTER!
BECOS
U ALL ARE JUST A BITCH
BUT
I AM THE BITCH!
maybe fauzi is better off..but i still love him!
hahahah
out of topic eh!

i still can remember the scene!
like a wild gorilla rushing to eat a whole lots of banana... just now..
" How u gonna stop me from Talking"
So dump the questions..
seriously..
Turning 20 but the mentality like PANTAT!!
not considerate at all..
ppl learning beside them..
but they talk to each other as if they are 1m away!
so stupid u know!
when others do this, they complain.. but when they do.. they not happy!
u think u all wat goddess ar?
KISS MY ASS!

Ur Treat in class is not making any of the other 25 scared..
we have our ways...
not physically..
but with words..
see how we bitch!
u guys bitch, and we found out..
hahah so easily find out..
remember i might not come school often..nor entertain ppl in class..
but i know wats gg on..

Be Prepared TRANNIES!!
yea i think the word tranny best describe u..

I LOVE NETTY!
I LOVE WANI!
I LOVE FIZAH!
I LOVE TAT SOMEONE!

Finally

2009-02-12T07:15:00.000-08:00

Erm.. recently i have been planing about my bday!
i like making my own surprise!
we gg seesha!!
and yes i hope tat..
when strike 12..they surprise me with a cake
and A kiss from that someone!!
haiz.. dun need cake from a shop..
home baked bake will be nicer thou..
yes! i cant wait!!
its gg to be uber fun with them again!!
cant wait to meet wani and fizah and afai!!
hahahah
cant wait!!
sat is gg to be fun with them

UPDATES

2009-02-09T00:31:00.003-08:00

I will link every one soon okie?
sorry!

BDAY COMING!
I WANT HEADPHONE!
PSP!
MONEY!!

2009-01-19T07:31:00.001-08:00

You are outgoing and love to be at the center of attention. From the outside, you may seem flashy, flirty, and tricky but your true self is strong, full of hope to be the leader. When you fail to convince someone, you will get frustrated, and perhaps let your temper shows. Your Love, You are emotional. Many can win your heart at once, but not for long. This is why you hardly win a decent relationship.

Something which i tried online!

Argh

2009-01-06T07:03:00.000-08:00

GG to die soon i think
so tired and my thorat has been killing me off..
even i cant turn here and there!

but i got to keep up with the pace..
if not i not gg anywhere!

i'm so sorry to aizal and wan..
to keep them waiting!
sorry!

than..
i so happy u got an interview already!
weee...
good for u.
i praying for u to be happier!
always hoping u are!

things will be slow i know!
but i want everystep to me meaningful!
and sincere!

Sick

2009-01-05T04:15:00.000-08:00

Argh!
my throat has been killing me greatly!
i feel like sticking my hand deep inside and scratch u know!
argh!
cant breath properly
nor eat
nor drink and yawn!
seen the doc twice for this
and he said nothing much!
but i feel likewise

OMG I MISS U!

Waiting

2009-01-03T08:01:00.000-08:00

When the waiting comes..
the going gets tougher!

i will wait definately..
So happy right now!
i just never go hooohaaaa in public or anywhere!
later ppl think i crazy!!

i have been stretching again!
damn painful!
tml voguelicious prac!
damn!
i dunno whether i can do the turns or not!
i dun wanna dissappoint them!!

I wanna meet him tml as well how?
tml i have to be back home at 8.30pm
need to revise for retake and upcoming CA!
and school opening on monday ar!
i tell u!
i cant wait to go school!
but i hate it!
hahahah

ouh!
this raihan eh!
i now chatting with him!
reply very2 slow!
like anti-climax u know!
gal u doing wat? jilat puki is it?

Damn!
i had sooo much fun in chingay!
lots of it!
costume is fucking nice ar!!
i love it!!
wasp costume is like so matrix!!
serious!

Ps:
should i hold his hands and give him a peck on the check..
or should he?
mmmmm

Damn!

2009-01-02T08:53:00.000-08:00

Today i met tat crazy guy!
hahah
as usual he has alot of photos to upload!
hahahaha
ouh we did talk about something!
and yes to everything!
and yea i will wait!
like u said we still meet and chat and everything!
i want u to get a job first!
let u be stable!

than i went to voguelicious prac!
wah!
today learn 2 choreo!
i can die i tell u!
the 1st is roll here and there!
the 2nd vogueing?
well i am way slacking behind!
i have to prove myself!!
i need to be who i was last time!
relax V! dun be stiff!!

ouh my puki tear today eh!
becos of izzy and aliff!
hahaha
they stretch me today!
wah i want to cry u know!!
but i kinda think i need more of it!!

well aizal can help me with that
hahahah

ouh we doing this for competition next sat..10 of jan!
at REPULIC POLY! (RP) @ woodlands!
take train get off at woodlands and walk there..
more details soon

Gay?

2009-01-01T00:46:00.000-08:00

Why are gays being insulted?

Is it wrong?

i dunno?

when i held my friend(guy) hand in town..
everyone was shock and looked at us with a look.
c'mon!
nothing wrong

look at the foreign workers!
they hold hands
why cant we?
is it tat wrong?

I'm proud to be one thou!!

A New Day.. nah

2008-12-31T09:59:00.000-08:00

Everyones been gg hooohaa over the new year shit!

well i did sent out msges..
some ask me why have i been so sarcastic on my msges..
well
truthfully i was angry while i was sending it out the 1st batch..
so if u get the 2nd batch means ur safe
hopefully u get the 2nd batch before there was a huge jam over network

so yup..
everyyear everyone makes new friends
some become even closer and some even the bestest
but once they are busy considered meself to me gone!
i mean i know singapore is a busy city but
dun tell me u cant even spare 5mins a day to send out at least 1 msg?
its tat simple u know? unlock phone,messages,type in message,send to my num,lock phone!
or even simple a call away!
argh!
so i was actually quite str forward to my new year messages
to those who felt guilty, i not gg to apologise, u know urself better
as i am always not busy, and even if i am, i still not busy or never busy!

wats with the hooohaa over new year shit!
everyone will be gg a new year a new life, a new year better this and that!
have u gone back to ur previous years and seen whether wat u said did come true?
to some it might have, to them i congrats but to the majority?
hello wake up!
i admit, this year i am still gg to be the same!
i am gg to party!
smoking!
drink whenever i feel like!

Well this year i might be gg NS! if i cant get into a poly!
tats all i can predict!
ouh another thing i can predict!
no longer gg to be teen!
no more teen in my age!
damn!
tats fast!!!

this time i gg to really2 try my best to keep my relationship tighter!
hahahaha
i know those of u whom i have told this statement is gg to go"yea u said this many times.than look where u end up"

so basically yea!
my friendship with fizah and the rest is gg strong.. this year would be the7th year!
love her alot!

Ouh i was at home watching the stupid countdown at marina bay live at home!
was alone at home!
everyone came home after hours!
very unlikely of me!!
the mediacorp artistes on TV really made a fool out of themselves..
esp tat lady whom sang the song So What(pink) and hot and cold(katty)
i tell u i was laughing my ass out alone on the sofa!
damn funny!
Her notes was like...
Her moves was like..
Her outfit did not match the song!
and she cant SING!!

than that channel 8 artist whom sang I'm Yours(jason)
was really nice!!
seriously!!
nice!

the rest! no comments!
laughing stock!

Ouh
tats all
another topic!

Today i confess sightly to him!
how much i felt of him!
i was really scared ar..
becos if this does not work out i gg to give up looking for one or getting into relationship ever
i made a vow on tat!
so i giving my best shot..taking it slowly
steadily!
he replied thou
he wanna talk about this when we meet..
so is it good or bad?
i dunno!!
i just thinking of the answer that i cant sleep!!
damn!!
its making me so excited yet curious!!

Lastly
Tml Fri!
meeting netty and Ivey to study! at 2pm at concourse!
till 7pm..
than i'll make my way to Changi Airport T3 for voguelicious practice!
Than i gg to leave at 10.30pm
Gg to go Tanjong pagar, gg play.. Fuck u know i must pay 15 bucks!!
to enter becos no free entry by the time i reach
gg to party all night..
taking first train home or bus..
than i go home bath..
Change, pack my things go for Chingay practice at 9am - 6.30pm

FULL DRESS REHEARSAL somemore!!
die!!

tats all
ciao!!

PS:
I;ve been waiting to tell u this for such a long time.
and i said it finally!
now wats urs..

Wat a week!

2008-12-31T02:04:00.000-08:00

Damn! i so love myself in the pic below..
the 1st one!
Transformation!
Credits to Aizal Avaira for the editing!
hahaha

Views

2008-12-29T06:30:00.000-08:00

Hey there my dead blog!
hahaha
Damn lazy to blog!

seriously today i so much fun with my friend!
alot!
he crazy ar!!

hahaha

Been

2008-12-23T07:19:00.000-08:00

Days at chingay as been getting boring.
its the same old time again!

met raihan soooo last min!
nah not the 1st time!
hahahahah

I have to say this
Finally i am happy to see him happy
after he went into a emotional breakdown!
his spirits has lifted up and i can see a smile again!
Well Wishes

This Xmas..
part of my wish came thru
so happy Aizal text me!
seriously!

Got My PSP!

mmmm
the rest not to know!
hahahah

joined Voguelicious already!

wore a booty pants already!
hahaha
(with black tights)
hahaha

basically tat ar..

Or 1 more thing

I WANNA GO SHIT NOW!!!

Haiz

2008-12-21T20:11:00.000-08:00

Lazy to blog nowdays!
i'm back to where i started again!
fizah and netty and wani and miki should know why
hahahaha
well
tats the way it is..
hahahaha

Tired already!
but still gg to cont!

I love the day we hang out together guys!
friday was super fun ar..wani ar very kuku!

hahaha
yesterday night slack with fizah till 12.30am..
cold sia i tell u!
hahaha
today metting syafiq n salwa to go makan at banquet at JP!
hahaha
than go chingay with them!
hahaha

Cute sia tat Syafiq!!!

Been Long right

2008-11-30T08:14:00.000-08:00

Hey Yo!
hahaha
its been a while!
yup truely
watever happen in this days of missing..
well i have been meeting MY Sexy Monster!
everynight!
without fail!
well there was once..
hahahahaha
but yes!
his been making me happy!
throwing me all his love and smiles like no one ever did!
He has this sweet smile!
and tat attracts me alot to him!
he is the 1st guy to ever control my live
eg, No more piercing.. dun drink...and no sex with others....ETC
he has made me feel secure and wanted tat way
who said controlling ur bf is not good!
i find it better tat way..
as there is someone whom cares for u and love for u..
so tat u dun end up having bad habits..
Sadly his gg NS soon.. like 8 more days exactly!
i so gg to fucking miss him ar!!
Nevertheless
he'll be in me!
Well his TP is on the 22Dec for his bike!
i forget when his car TP is..
well good luck for him!

I cant sleep without seeing him a day!
really... or even not texting him..
he has been so caring towards me...
everything..
have i reached home..
have i eaten?
and more

Just awhile ago.. i met him...
he gave me warning..
he know how my eating habits ar..
so while he in NS..
if i loose wt to his eyes.. his not gg to meet me till i gain it back!
and for my piercing..
becos i wanna do 3 more.. 2 on my tongue and 1 more somewhere..
he said he'll strip me down and see if i got any..
if i got..
than he'll leave me...

Well... the most happiest thing is
i cant wait to move in with him!
its gg to be the best dream i gg to have..
best life spend...
best everything!!!

And his a REAL Badboy!
i bet u on that..
hahahahaha

Have a good rest My Sexy Monster Botak!

To the rest:
Chingay Has been Fun
FUCKING HOT!!
always on the sun!
somehow its getting boring!
i wanna back out like tat!
dance mmmm
i stopping on the 6thdec
sorry i cant join u guys for the 7thDec!
yea..
tats about it..

his made my world gone wild..

ARh

2008-11-22T07:47:00.000-08:00

MISS soccerboy!
he gg to be busy the whole day and tml as well!
argh!

Boring Sia

2008-11-20T17:25:00.000-08:00

Now In class!
FUCK SIA ACCOUNTING!!
My stupid teacher Ms Quah!
ARGH!!
see her already make me wanna go mad!
she is irratating ar..
like she is 40 plus i think!
still a virgin!
no wonder she is like always moody!
go find herself a fuck at BATAM!
definately she will get it!
Netty is not here today!
hahahah
gg to be a boring day sia!!

I kinda Miss Soccerboy!
10 mins gg to be 10 hours for the next!
hahahaha
well tahan!
he gg to have his HP tml.
and than i can text him than onwards!
Even thou i have nothing against him!
he seems to make me wanna have him more and more!
hahahah
definately he does too..
90Percent become 91
after the call become 90 back..weird kan!
hahahah
only those who knows it understand wat i am talking about!

I so Sleepy!!!
and i gg to have 3 hrs accounting!
i came in class at 8.45!
8.45 - 11am!
her stupid accounting lesson!!
than auditing at 11 - 12noon.
than i go home with nothing to do!
i feel like i wanna hang out today!
maybe head to the club or something!!
or go tantric!

Wat A day

2008-11-20T07:14:00.000-08:00

Met Up with ivey and Netty for Acc study!
hahaha
yesh netty i am single and desperate..
hahahahahaha
that was really a joke!!
hahaha
than after tat went to meet fizah and city hall!
we went SGFLYERS!!!
wooohooo!!!

free off course..i had TIX!!!
hahaahahaha
than we had so much fun ar!!
Than SOCCERBOY called!
hahahah
talk and talk again!
netty and fizah was like disturbing me!!
hahahaha
Than we went to makan as well!!
than after tat went home!
otw home with fizah...
the guy whom sat beside her looked exactly like luqman!
seriously!!
than i texted him..but it was not him in the end!!
hahahaha
Than once i reached boon lay!
just tap out....
SOCCERBOY called again!
as usual..
me with that huge smile!!
hahaha
even thou we are just friends
i feel so connected to him ar..
hahahaha
feel to comfortable talking to him...talking everything to him
and wat happen before and all!
hahahaha
sent fizah home..than Soccerboy sent me home..by talking to me on the phone!
Even as i am typing this..he is still talking to me!!
funny ar he!!!
hahahah

8 MORE DAYS!!
like he said..time will pass by fast!
hahahahahah

I hope Gack had his pasta today!
he has been craving for it!!
hahahaha
and hope Fard is not bored at home..

PS:
SoccerBoy Make Me Smile like i never did before!
Thanks Mate!

OH OH OH!!
Me Netty and Fizah!
TOOK LOTS OF PHOTOS!!
soon to update!
than u all can see my new hair cut and stuff..
for those who have not seen me yet ar..
hehehehe

OMG!

2008-11-19T19:22:00.000-08:00

I was super happy when soccer boy Called at 12 plus yesterday night
Was getting paraniod actually...
and was thinking of him than suddenly..
The phone rang with Private number!
and HELLO!! SOCCER BOY!!!!
hahahahaha
Talk and talk and talk this 3am..
the funniest thing is i said all my farewells like 20 mins earlier..
becos the phone was about to flat..
it gave actually 12 warnings..hahah
cool right
like we manage to talk another 20 mins..
with 20 warnings..than gone flat..
he is sick!
hope he takes his medication!
and Drink lots of water Dr.!!
hahahhaha
Funny ar!!

PS:
for all those haters out there!
reading this!
he is just a friend!Straight Friend!!
Dun Get Jealous!
Hmp!!